random...i wan to watch freedom writers agn!!...

heheh...ps...
altho it was a super long post but still gt things forgt to say=P

comments received for actin as a lian..LOL
susan lee(cardiac gerls, lc module teacher) said i was veri natural
i was wonderin...shld i be sad or happi abt it?
natural?
im nt LIAN yay...LOL
while chattin wit shawn, he said,
'eh, where's ur ah lian voice, why u sound so different on stage?...
i didn't noe sp gt ah lian...nw then i noe...hahah'
im a guai kia in sp yeah...=)
n de sheng gave mi a nickname called 'ai yan de' -_-'''

so i tink my actin skills nt tat lousy ya?...
nv throw golgi productions' face...
wahAHA...
golgi body rollin on the grd~~

n im glad i joined PF
cos i learned mani things in PF
1st, u onli live once, so live life to the fullest
give it all, once n for all cos 10 yrs later, u r no longer a YOUTH
furthermore, when there is a will, there is a way
n lina is definitely my role model
she is so active in sch n in her community
she continuously give bac to the community
i wan to be like her
i wan to make an impact in my life n maybe in other ppl's lives
i do nt want my life to be jus sch, work n shoppin
altho i volunteer myself once a wk in rotary club(nt LOTTERY club...-_-''')
bt it's nt enuff
ponderin whether shld i join PAYM or some other youth grps
at least i get to noe more ppl, able to organise events n etc
i rmb one of the speaker said,
at least 10 yrs later, when u look bac to the past, there is alwaes sth worth keepin n rmbin
those memories,
no matter sad or happy.......

finalli managed to watch the final episode of dou niu yao bu yao(i noe im slow..)
hw i wish i cn be like the characters in the show
my fren once said to mi
in luv, u alwaes tend to use ur brain, nt ur heart
n tat's the reason why she alwaes ask mi for advice cos she alwaes use her heart n nt the brain
she admire hw i cn be lidat
pros n cons
i tink tat actualli deter mi frm startin a r/s
i alwaes tink alot
all the wat IFs n assumptions
when things might nt even happen tat way
maybe i shld start listenin to my heart?

at first
i was sad tat u didn't took the initiative
bt later
i was glad tat u didn't

we r frm totally different world
the naive mi cn nv enter ur complicated world
i felt disgusted
my fren told mi, wake up n cum out frm tat shell of urs
inside my heart,
i noe tat im actualli out of tat shell
bt maybe

i jus dun wan to admit tat tis kind of things do happen
peter pan syndrome
tat's wat im sufferin
unwillin to face the real world....